A sacrifice to better the mind
A chance to free the hive
To strive and thrive
In a free state of mind
Live among the trees
With no one to please
Quiet and shaded
Cold and faded
Returning to earth
Back roads home
In a cosmic rebirth
Lost and unfound
In a deep six shroud
A spot in the dirt
With insects to flirt
Sing with crows
Where the flowers grow
And firefly’s glow
Returning to earth
Back roads home
In a cosmic rebirth
Lost and unfound
In a deep six shroud
Not ready for launch
Unprepared for flight
Uncomfortable elsewhere
Thrusters on
The pressure intense
Orbiting alone in silent despair
Looking for my lunar love
To travel time and space
An intergalactic love affair
Fiery passionate burning-hot comet
Circling the galaxy
Igniting the sky and air
Wandering the cosmos
Solo and broken
Waving you in with a bright signal flare
Searching for my lunar love
Exploring planets
Oxygen the only care
Hidden by black holes
And galaxies alike
Consumed by prayer
Cold and desolate
Shattered and afraid
In need of repair
Can’t be a star and the sun all at once
Be warmed by my existence
Or watch me shine from afar
I put my fingers to the keys
Hoping for inspiration
Praying for resolutions
Words come out
But they don’t convey
Delete them all
They don’t matter anyway
Backspace is worn
The print half gone
Along with the letters W-H-and Y
With L-O-V- and E
Fading away
Like a ship
Headed to sea
Scrambled, jumbled
Full of shame
Regret
Loss
Constant mental pain
It’s all a blur
Not worth the cost
Insecure
Wander-lost
Wonder-lost
Ponder-lost
Just lost
I have not written a line
Since this pause in time
I struggle to see
What has become of me
What seemed so great
Is now too late
I was wasted away
Now my soul will pay
No truth to be found
Sadness abounds
At the bottom I weep
The climb to steep
I did this before
But I can do no more
Only myself to blame
As I carry this shame
Deep into the abyss
No one will miss
No one pulling from above
Too rotten to love
Desolate and bare
A fate unfair
Alone in your car
Windows up
On a Bluetooth call
Oblivious to the world
I watched with intrigue
As you laughed
And couldn’t contain it
Your heart was beaming
Genuine and true
Blissfully crying
Carelessly happy
I imagined your laugh
and heard your joy
I wished it was me
And wondered to myself
How can I be
That happy
Endless thoughts
Nothing to say
Sit and stare
Trapped in a blue light glow
I should’ve been an artist
With all the blanks I draw
My eyelids are heavy…
….But my thoughts are heavier…
…There’s a weight on my soul….
…I think I’m losing control…
Clap of thunder
Explosive electric light
Darkness devours, but
Her soul shines bright
Flowers wilt, and
Leaves begin to fall
Cold is coming, but
Her smile warms all
No birds left to sing
Nest empty and bare
Forlorn and blue, but
Her embrace like a prayer
Heavy winds howl
Waves crash down
Floods consume all, but
Her song cures a frown
Dangerous elements
Conditions unknown
Weather changing, but
With Her you’re never alone
Here we are again
Miserable gloomy day
Same forest
Familiar trail of fear–
Confused like a late blooming flower
Covered in frost
It won’t give up
Searching for warmth–
A comforting gentle breeze
Blows through the meadow
Whisking away the cold front
Among the trees–
The sun activates
A charge to nature
A sort of call-to-arms
Prepare to battle–
For the light
Will turn to dark
Where the cold will
Rear its ugly side–
Wrap yourself with love
Feel it in your soul
For you will not shiver
And you will not shake–
Like the scared little flower
Fearful of the frost
Accept the warmth
And begin to heal–
Words can’t describe
Written or otherwise
This pain in my heart
The tears in my eyes
There is no consoling
Nothing you can say
To rid this agonizing
Emotional cloudy day
I go back to sleep
Hopeful I was dreaming
Instead a nightmare
Where I can’t stop screaming
Paying for sins
That never existed
Torture endured
Never enlisted
How do I trust
How can I believe
When all you do
Is try to take them from me
In times of strife
Alone I stand
You were supposed to be
The footprints in the sand
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